Not wanting an abortion but knowing it’s the right thing to do?

I will not feel relieved after an abortion. I will grieve, mourn and feel upset. I didn’t even want one but my parents kicked me out and said they will cut me off if I don’t have an abortion. And I refuse to bring a child into the world without a stable, resourceful home, so now this is what I want to do. Has anyone else felt this way? Or been able to recover from an abortion because of these reasons?