Baby talk 👶🏼👣🍼

So I lost a baby at 18 I was 16 weeks and found out my precious little boy didn't have a heart beat I struggled for a long time I had bought everything and was very much so ready to be a mummy it broke me in two when I got induced got to hold him but couldn't take him home and protect him. I even tried stupidly afterwards to make my self Infertile by not taking the antibiotics and medication I was given to remove the infection I was suffering with also pass the placenta sorry for the gore... I never wanted to feel the pain and heartache I felt again.