Idk where to start with this so sorry in advance if this is everywhere. And sorry that’s it’s so long.

Anyways. I’ve been feeling neglected. I think it because school is starting. I mean last year she would only talk to me on breaks that where longer than a week. On school days and normal weekends she would text me at 8:50pm saying stuff like sorry blah blah blah another excuse and then say she can’t talk long because she needs to go to bed at 9:00pm. I have a file in my notes app for things I want to say but don’t because I don’t want to make this relationship all about me and make it seem like it’s all about me and stuff by telling how I feel. So I put up with it. I would always get mad when I would go on Facebook later (like after 12:30) and see that she posted like 20 things all from the last few hours when she was “sleeping” and the 1 out of 20 times I would bring it up she would have an excuse like “my post must if have been delayed and posted later” or “my friend has my account” but she won’t give anyone her account to anyone and anyways. I felt neglected and that she didn’t care and then the summer started and we talked all the time. Well she mostly ranted about stuff. And 2 weeks ago we where on call and I decided so say something about how I felt for the first time and say how I was scared for school to start but only for one reason. And she didn’t ask for the reason she was talking about some bitchface (her word literally) she was like “why is Bitchface there” like not paying attention to me talking to herself and so I said it’s because she never talked to me while school was in and told her why and shit and she kinda just pushed it off so I asked if she heard what I said and she told what I said back in a nonchalant not caring way and I guess I’m a petty bitch so I hung up the call because I was being petty and upset over nothing and she didn’t even care didn’t even text me and I kinda expected her to (ever time we call it ends randomly so) and she didn’t even care so I got upset and went to bed and school has not even started and won’t In a few weeks. She already back to ignoring me. Like yesterday she didn’t text me till 10:00 and then would reply to my text ever 20 minutes after that. But recently the only time she would text me was when she wanted to rant about her family. But I’ve also kinda stopped eating as well and told her once and she said don’t and left it and I have been trying to hint and it for some time now but I never get the chance because she’s always ranting about how she thinks her mom hates her because her mom made her do the dishes or go upset when she asked her mom go get up and close the bathroom door (my gf was in the bathroom like she should have shut it on the was in) and she thinks her dad is a dead beat because he drinks sometimes so every time I ever try to hint I don’t get the chance because I new rant come up and I don’t want to say my feelings right after a rant because I don’t want seem like I’m trying to put the attention on me and make the conversation about me after she feels sad because her brother took the last pizza or whatever. And I’m just feeling neglected recently because she only text me at like 8:00 and rants and leaves me alone the whole day and she know that’s bad for me because then I start thinking and feeling Insecure. I just feel like she doesn’t care. But I guess I’ll suck it up till our next week long brake when school starts.... and no almost every time even at the beginning of the relationship I would always text first and I hated that she wouldn’t never text first so when I would wait for her to text first I would be waiting a very very very long time. Also since I’m a needy little shit, I like to call but I was always the one asking if we can call and she would be like “sure” “ok” little stuff and I told her we didn’t have to but she would reassure me that we could but then she would never talk to me. I do little text every so often so I stoped asking if we can call. We haven’t called in 2 weeks now. And idk I’m just. I don’t know and ways thanks for reading if you read this for I just wanted that off my chest I’m so sorry for wasting your time to read my little rant. Sorry again I know I shouldn’t feel this way but my emotions do so sorry that I ranted even tho I’m in the wrong here but thank you for letting me get this off my chest. Also sorry if theirs any spelling errors my body hurt and my chest is tight and I only got a little done reviewing it so sorry if and errors and Sorry again for wasting your time.

Edit: not even 2 minutes after posting this I kinda said something that was about my feelings and it turned into a rant about her family again. I know she want to get it off her chest but I still feel sad that I know I’m in the wrong for feeling this and still getting upset. Ok sorry for wasting your time again.