Before I fell pregnant I was in a dark place with depression and anxiety. Through my pregnancy I was depressed but not as much as before. Now I’ve had my little one I’m back to that dark place again. I’m not eating regularly or enough at all, sleep deprivation has been exactly what it says on the tin. I hate the way I look, dress. I hate having people over, I hate going out. I just hate my life and I don’t know what to do to stop feeling this way. I have my medication ready to start once I’ve quit breastfeeding (which should be in a week) but beforehand all it did was numb everything. It was easier having a niece or a nephew to hand back after a cuddle but now the full responsibility of having my own child is creeping up on me.