First time mom

This will be my First baby and I don’t wanna have a babyshower because there has been a lot a stresses with my mom and my child father mom.. there’s no real drama but it’s a lot of unnecessary back and forth with my baby dad and I.. i would love to have a babyshower but with all the bs that’s going on I don’t wanna have a baby shower anymore.. can anyone give me advice because I’m a little stressed about it..