Is my marriage doomed?

First off, I want to say that I absolutely love my husband. He is amazing in every way.

We’ve also had some rough patches and a lot of stress the last year and that’s when I feel like I messed up.

Around the time I started dating my now husband (8 years ago) I met another guy, let’s call him ted. My husband always felt threatened by Ted and I always felt a connection to Ted, but never did anything about it. We had occasionally talked over the last 6 years but he moved out of state and we didn’t keep up with each other as much. Then this last winter he came to town and after chatting on Instagram decided to hang out. My husband was with us the whole time. It was never just the two of us. Nothing sexual or romantic happened but our connection felt bigger. After he left I developed a small crush on him and occasionally thought about him after he left.

I was trying so hard with my husband. I would try cuddling with my husband or sitting down and talking about how I was feeling and I wanted to be there for him because I knew he was stressed, but he literally wouldn’t let me in. He was too busy to spend quality time with me or laughed when I’d come hug him saying “what are you doing?” It sucked. It was just... off.

Then I started saving pictures of ted in a folder on my phone to daydream about, remembering how happy I felt with him while me and my husband were struggling.

My husband found the folder, we’ve been working through all of this, and I want my marriage to be ok. I know I was in the wrong. Do you think I can redeem myself? Nothing physical ever happened and no sexual advances or messages were exchanged. My husband and I both admit we weren’t doing our part, obviously me more the problem and he admits he checked out for a while.