Proud of my feeding journey

My girl is 5 weeks old and I've had a horrible feeding journey.

She wouldn't latch from day 1 and by the first night she was miserable and hungry. We kept trying breast and it just led to hysterics. By day 2, we decided to supplement with formula even though that was not my plan. She was so much happier once she got some food in her.

Then we go home and the whole first week is more misery trying to get her to attach to the breast. She just didn't want to, so more formula. At this point she now prefers bottle and is not into breast so I think "ok I'll just exclusively pump."

Add on I have a horrible recovery and am seeing the doctor regularly because my blood pressure significant rose AFTER DELIVERY. Was never a problem before.

So by week 2 I'm not doing well at all. The pump schedule was horrible and I'm just not coping. So we decide "ok we're just going to be formula fed" and I fully stop pumping and feeding. This is when all the tummy troubles start.

Baby starts getting horrible gas and reflux. She's in pain. More misery. Now I feel guilty that I stopped breast. We change formula 3 times in the first 3 weeks. Several visits to pediatrician.

So then after 6 days of no breast stimulation I decide to start pumping again. My supply is super low but I want to try anything to make my girl feel better. I get on a 2 hour schedule all day and take fenugreek, lactation coookies, etc. After a few days it goes up (still low but it's going the right direction)

We also switched to Alimentum and her stomach is getting so much better.

I decide to try breast feeding again. She does a full feeding on both boobs. It was so incredible. I'm not pushing the breast because I think she still prefers bottle but I'm going to try a little every day.

I think we both just needed some time to figure out feeding. But I'm proud she ate from my breasts and so happy I could get supplyafter 6 day stop. Still on this feeding journey but it finally seems to be turning a corner!