Send help. I'm👌this close to killing him.

Pray for my s.o. He needs Jesus. He needs God. He needs help in any form because I'm so close to making it look like an accident. These post partum hormones are real and I feel like I'm being tested. My s.o, like all other men, just doesn't ever know the right thing to say and ends up summoning the devil in me instead. Last night was almost his last ya'll. I was feeling a bit hormonal and had started talking about this stupid cosplayer chick on social media. I say "she's not that cute, and she's shaped like a 12 year old boy". I can't stand females who dress up in slutty costumes and call it cosplay, but that's another story for another time. Anyways, my man goes on, and this is the moment he fucked up, he says "yeah, but she's goofy". Those were the words that almost got him killed. Now I'm looking at him like

"What are you trying to say? I'm not goofy?"

Then he goes on to further bury himself by saying "when are you goofy? Go ahead make a funny face?" See, you're not."

"Oh so I'm not goofy enough for you now? You want a goofy ass bitch. Then go. Bye." I think I got more defensive because he one time had made a comment he had a celeb crush on her and I said "she ain't no celebrity with your dumbass". She was on some cosplay show. I don't know. Anyway. I then get up and storm to the room. He's like "oh no here we go". I sit on my bed in a huff and I'm fuming. Then I start sobbing. Like uncontrollable sobs. He comes into the room and says "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." I'm like "no, no, go on, go with your boy bodied goofy crush." He sits behind me on the bed is hugging me now, as I'm still ugly crying, like someone just killed my goldfish, and he's lauging because of how ridiculous it is. He's like "what's wrong with you right now? Is it hormones? You're scaring me." I'm like "go have a crush on someone else. I'm not fun enough for you, just go." He's laughing and saying "omg, stop" His laughing was not helping him. My hormones have been so bad lately. I'm crying and getting moody so fast. But why can't men just know what to say? That would help so much. Just don't be stupid guys, seriously. He's one more stupid thing away from meeting Jesus I swear. I know this might sound ridiculous, but right now stuff like this is really bothering me. 😑