Ectopic Pregnancy

Back in March after a coworker suggested that I might be pregnant I took two tests which confirmed that I was. The following week I had it confirmed by a doctor. I found out at only a few weeks so when the doctor didn’t see anything in the ultrasound she didn’t know what to tell me. I bled the entire time I was pregnant and unfortunately had a gut feeling something was wrong. Two weeks later I went for another ultrasound and 10 minutes after I left the office I got a call to go to er because it was ectopic. I was only 6 or 7 weeks along. It’s been roughly 5 months now and I find myself thinking about it constantly, and feel like I’ll never be able to get over it. I often think about how far along I’d be now, if it was a boy or girl, how I still feel like it was my fault, that I’m terrified it will happen again.