Feeling so defeated

I feel like everything in my life is a failure right now.

I feel like having a baby was the worst thing I could’ve done for myself bc I am terrible at it. 3 months in and I still have zero patience my kid doesn’t do what others on here have been doing for weeks and I just feel like an overall failure.

I have not found a baby sitter and I go back to work in a month.

Just feeling really shitty