Relationship help

This is my first post... me and my boyfriend have been fighting on and off for about a month now. We’ve been together 10 months. I feel like I can’t talk to him. He makes me cry constantly, I’m no longer happy with our relationship, but I love him. Any time I tell him something he turns it into the victim card. I just don’t know what to do anymore. He just told me I put no effort into this relationship and that I take him for granted. What hurt me the most was he told me I don’t even act like I love him. I drop everything for him.. I’m scared to lose him, but I’m more scared to lose myself. Please help

Update: he dumped me today🙃😭