Today..

Heaven

My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and today... today, I just realized that I don’t think I can marry him. I’ve been married before and the divorce was soooo ugly and I never wanted to go through it again. I’m trying to not compare my past to my present but I feel like I’m have similar feelings. We have talked about getting married soon but I just don’t think we should. Now I’m just wondering if I should leave or stay and try to figure out why I’m having these feelings. I’ve prayed and prayer about this and I feel like I’m getting mixed signals and more and more confused.