Terrified of going over 40 weeks

*Possible trigger warning* * long post*

I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant with my first baby and my anxiety keeps increasing the closer my due date gets. My sister in law had a traumatic birth of her first born and I know it isn’t very common but I can’t help but let the fear and “ what if’s” take over. My sister in law lives in Mexico and while she was pregnant with her first child, her body didn’t want to go into labor on its own. At 40 weeks she went to the hospital and was told she was having false labor and was sent home. She was then sent home 2 more times over the next week because she wasn’t progressing and her water wasn’t breaking. She eventually went over 42 weeks when she was finally progressed enough to be admitted, but when they broke her water in the hospital there were signs of meconium. Soon after breaking her water her baby’s heart rate would drop with every contraction so she was sent into an emergency c-section. After delivering her baby boy his apgar score was very poor, he was over 10 pounds and his lungs were filled with meconium from being in the womb too long. The hospital she delivered in didn’t have a nicu, but instead of careflighting him to the nearest nicu and doing everything they could have done, the doctors simply told her that she was going to lose her baby and he wouldn’t survive the night. She got to spend 2 hours with her newborn, the baby she grew and loved for 42 weeks, before he passed away in her arms. All because of lazy doctors who didn’t want to take the time to save his life, had they kept her in hospital instead of sending her home 3 separate times she would now have a healthy 2 year old little boy. She just recently won a negligence lawsuit against that hospital and it’s doctors but no amount of money is going to bring her baby back. I don’t want to sound selfish making her horrible and traumatic story about me, but now that my due date is getting closer I’m terrified something could happen to my baby. And I know that the medical system in Mexico is very different than USA but the hospital I’m going to deliver at doesn’t have a nicu and I’m terrified something out of our control could happen. I’ve noticed a lot of women in this group are going over 40 weeks and that it’s seems common to go over 40 weeks when it’s your first baby. Am I being irrational and silly to be so worried? Should I make a 2 hour commute to the nearest hospital with a nicu when I go into labor? I live about 2 hours south of Dallas and The hospital I am supposed to be delivering at is very small. L&D only has 8 birthing rooms and doesn’t even have a nursery. I don’t know if it’s a good thing to deliver in such a small hospital or if I should go to a bigger hospital like Methodist or Baylor, even if it means I won’t have the same OB I’ve been seeing my whole pregnancy. What are yall’s opinion? Should I just calm down and stop thinking worst case scenario? Or should I try to be prepared for worst case scenario?