Just wanted to share something.

I am in a LDR since 5 years. The last time I met my BF was 3 years ago. It's really difficult to keep up because of the time difference and our work routines. We live in 2 different countries (US and India). For some reason I feel this relationship has taken a toll on me. I feel depressed most of the times. I try to be busy and not cling onto him or be dependent on him but I always feel that I become needy and I have never felt him being needy ever. Is something wrong with me? The intensity with which I miss him, I don't feel that happening from his side. I also feel lonely because half of my friends are married and half are dating, having flings, enjoying their lives and here I am stuck. Can't enjoy the marriage benefits and can't enjoy the spinster's benefits. I have been just waiting and waiting and waiting, don't know when this wait will get over and my life would move on and my relationship would progress. I don't like meeting my friends anymore because I can't relate with them anymore. I feel so helpless and alone. I am sorry for this sad post, I just thought letting out might help me someway. And I really needed someone to talk or listen to me. :)