Your birth stories make me cringe 😓

So I've been threw it before. I have birth to my daughter at hardly 16. I went threw hours of labor over night by myself in my own bathtub cuz my mom and ex didn't believe I was actually in labor. I dilated myself to 5 cm. So the doctors gave me stuff to make me dilate even quicker. I go an epidural. Which I remember as being the absolute worst part of my entire labor. Took a nap. Woke up mad I couldn't eat the pizza my sister brought us as an excuse to come see if I had delivered her neice yet while working for a local pizza shop. I kicked everyone out but her father and pushed 14 minutes only. I remember a slight burn. I didn't tear at all. It seemed alright. And I've always thought I was lucky to have a pretty decent experience. But now hear I am ten years later pregnant with my second. I scroll threw and read all these birthing posts cuz I'm excited and anxious and really just wana see all of your adorable babies. And believe me. They are ADORABLE. But I find myself squirming in my seat. Having hot flashes and freaking myself out so much I have to stop reading and back out. And none of the stories are all that bad. I just can't handle it! I'm so scared it's gone hurt so much more then the first time. Or I'll have some crazy birth story of doctors having to flip my baby or I don't even know aaaaaahhhhhhhh. I've been threw birth before but I'm sooooooo much more nervous now! All you ladies are wonderful powerful woman :)