High key struggling

I'm at a loss. I seriously don't know what path to try next, so I need some advice. I'm gonna ramble for a minute, so bare with me here. I started my AF when I was 12, immediately there was no regularity (normal, I know) but it started to get out of hand (I was constantly spotting, everyday all the time, for a year) my doctor put me on the pill at 13 to regulate it. I only took them for a month, because I bled so much, you'd think I died (we literally had to throw out a mattress, which made it look even more like we were trying to cover up a murder) so I stopped taking the pills and magically my period stopped... for 8 months. Then I got one, maybe two consecutively, then another 6-8 months without it. Until I was 17 this was my pattern, it didn't really bother me, although my periods were awful, I basically had a red river gushing from my vagina and passed clots the size of my fists multiple times a day. But I managed. When I was 17, my period came one month, and she decided she didnt want to go away, so she stayed and made my life hell for two and a half months straight. My mom was never really worried about my cycle, because she had the same thing happen to her her whole life until she got a hysterectomy (I was considering this, but obviously I'm too young) my mom finally dragged me to the doctors and after blood test after blood test they told me I'm anemic, and if I had waited any longer I would have had to get a blood transfusion, but not once did they tell me why this was happening to me, or what was wrong with me. My iron was so low, I was at a 7.0 (Awesome, right?) So they gave me these magic pills to take for 10 days to make my period stop (hallelujah) WRONG. Just when I thought my AF couldn't get any worse... I was up at 3 am puking because my cramps were so bad, I was going through tampons left and right, (this is seriously not an exaggeration, it was like every 20 minutes)and another mattress later, she finally stops, and my cycle of 6-8 months continues. But I didnt care because I honestly felt so much better (anyone with low iron knows exactly what I mean) a year and a half later (over 18 now) it happened again, 1.5 months of bleeding, so I go back to the doctors, and I'm like look I'm tired of this shit, take it all out now, I'll adopt some kids, cause this is endless for me (obviously they still said no) she prescribed me some more birth control and sent me on my merry way. I was very hesitant to start them considering what happened when I was 13, but I took them, and I had the best 9 months of my life of one period a month (it was literal bliss) until santa decided for Christmas he was going to give me another endless period. (I'm literally screaming with anger at this point) so another costly trip to my OBGYN (we're on a first name basis now) results in new pills with a higher dosage of hormones. And they work! I'm not break through bleeding anymore! Except... I literally wanted to kill myself (19 at this point btw) I had severe depression, anxiety, wasn't sleeping at all, nausea, vomiting, terrible cramps, emotional all the time (literally a mental breakdown daily) and I honestly wanted to off myself because I just had no hope, I was either going to bleed out, or kill myself, those were my options. So my roommate was extremely concerned about me (as she should have been) and she literally dragged me back to the doctors, told them what was going on, and my doctor was like "no stop taking them immediately. No more, I'm recommending an IUD, this is what will help you." I'm too depressed to think about the process, cause I'm like well I can't have any more pain than what I'm already feeling so, let's do it. I got the IUD March 1 2019 everything is going great! Until the last 3 weeks, where I've been spotting everyday, in the morning it's dark, but throughout the day it gets lighter, until it's the yucky brown color, and then it just stays that way. I'm literally so frustrated and downright pissed off at the world, I feel so defeated all the time, and the sad part is that I can't fight my own body. I just don't know what to do anymore. Do I get my IUD removed and just let my body do its thing? Or what? I dont even know anymore. I just need recommendations, cause I'm starting to feel hopeless. I'm sorry this is long, and if you've made it this far, I thank you for reading my very personal life story, maybe I should write a book next. Thanks.