Stressed, nervous, anxious. Miscarriage

After ttc for the past 6 years we finally found out we were expecting our first in Aug.

We thought we were 7/8 weeks when we had our 1st ultrasound at the end of August. They only found a small gestational sac and said I was likely only 3/5 weeks. I’ve always had irregular periods so even though this was stressful news we accepted it. Maybe we were just really early.

9/9...5w3d I had blood work to test HCG levels. This same week I started spotting. Barely anything, mostly pink or brown, and only when I wiped. I also saw my ob and she said if my numbers weren’t doubling we would have reason for concern. My levels were taken 2 days apart and were 26,777 then 31,465. Obviously they didn’t double, and with the spotting we were already concerned!

9/16: 6w3d my spotting has turned to bleeding. Red. And two days ago I started wearing a pad. Since I’ve put the pad on I’ve started to really bleed and have even passed clots. Not as heavy as a period but still enough for a pad. Up until yesterday I haven’t had cramping. Just light intermittent. But since last night the cramping has been more frequent, but not as bad as period cramps.

I’ve let my dr know. And she told me to try to get in for an US ASAP. I’m scheduled for one next Wednesday and have been on a waiting list Incase of cancellations since Monday.

I’m so stressed. I’m pretty sure this is a miscarriage, because of the blood clots, but I still can’t help but be hopeful.

I keep talking myself out of thinking that it is a miscarriage even when I see the blood. My HCG levels were fairly high just last week!