I think me & my husbands marriage is over
My husband is in the army and so far, being a military wife isn’t something i truly like being, but i love being his wife. I do everything because i love him. But deep down, I really miss home, being away from home has made me feel really depressed, i tried making friends yet i still have none. And its hard to control my feelings because i really want to feel happy here but i just cant... its hard coping with this change in my life. Its like no matter how hard i try to love being here i just cant bring myself up to that place in mind. My husband knows and understands how i feel. My husband keeps me sane and he makes me really happy. So being here is worth it because i cant imagine life without him. He started talking about leaving the service after his contract is up, and i support his decision.. Infact, i 100% support it because of how much i miss home.
But then he brings up that he decided to join the air force instead because its a guaranteed paycheck. And the first thing i tell him is that i support his decision. I want him to do what makes him happy. But i also had to be honest with him on how i feel and i told him that i just want to be home. And i even told him that im not sure about moving again to another state and dealing with this feeling for a few more years. Im not sure how ill even feel being gone for a few years all over again.. He probably feels like im making him feel bad for feeling this way, but i really didnt try to. But i couldnt lie to him either. Im not sure what to do, i want to make our marriage work but i cant sacrifice my feelings again. We might just drift apart if he does end up leaving. Im not sure how to feel about that but ive been through enough pain to learn to get through it if the worse happens. I dont know how you military wives do it but ya’ll are really strong women. I wish i can be just as strong.
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