Need to vent something Sex related (work with me)

My boyfriend and I were having a talk one time about having sex a few weeks ago. We have been together for almost 8 yrs minus 9 months we where on a break.

(I know what you guys are thinking man 8 yrs and no sex)

My boyfriend and I have foreplay all the time which satisfies him and me. It’s the actual intercourse that gets to me. I know that I will be really really bad at it and disappointment him. One thing is that he does push he just goes with the flow.

I guess you can say we had “sex” one time I think 🤔 it’s hard to explain. Pants off his man hood worked his way into me but I think I was so nervous that it was not satisfying at all for both of us. Plus we where in a rush.

I’m just hold this all back and I don’t know how to move past it. I mean I would like to have actual sex and us both enjoy each other. Just for some reason I know because I will be bad at it I will disappoint him.

I should have said this in the beginning but he is my first for everything!