Vent session: I know I'm a sinner

This isn't for me to be judge by anyone on here bc when ever I post there's always one person that makes me rethink life.. this is a vent session:

So I have 2 bestfriends a girl and a boy I had a photoshoot for my birthday on Saturday and the both of them said they couldn't make it and ended up surprising me there in the middle of a photo so I was berry excited. My boy best friend has been my crush for about 7 years but we only been good friends for 1 year. I told him how I felt about him and surprisingly he felt the same way. We talk daily on the phone for hours at a time and we have done other things😉 but not necessarily sex. So he talks about marriage and all. We are both involved in church, I have many offices and he is a preacher. But the bad part ....he has a girlfriend 🤦🏿‍♀️so I'm trying to move on n I'm talking to someone else but we have been friends for so long that even if I move on he will always be there.