#pregnancylossawarenessmonth

I remember when I missed my period but didn’t think of anything. I was telling myself no I’m not pregnant that’s impossible so I waited. But then I caught myself eating weird items and being hungry 24/7 so I tested. And there it was in a blink of an eye I was gonna be a mother of 2. I was so scared but at the same time extremely exited for my baby girl to be a big sister 💜. WE WERE GONNA BE A FAMILY OF 4 our family was growing! I was already planning a lot of things even thou I was early. I was so exited to share the news with my family but I was like no I’m gonna wait till 10 weeks I was (4 weeks) and some days . And you know what’s crazy my parents called me saying they had a dream of me being pregnant!!! 💙 but I kept my secret lol So, I made my appointment for my first ultrasound and it was in 2 weeks. I was extremely exited but nervous as well so I went about my days and felt pretty good but I was noticing the loss of symptoms as usual me I was starting to freak out but I kept it cool. (5+2weeks) I was at Walmart in the baby section and there was like a empty feeling I felt completely empty and started to feel a lot pain. I went home ... then at (5+4weeks) at 6am I wiped and there was blood that’s when I knew that I was about to loose my baby. Then at 12pm I was bleeding heavily my husband was at work already. I had to tell my parents😞 my mom rushed to me and took me that’s when I started passing everything at the hospital. And finally they did an ultrasound and that’s when they told me my baby was gone. 💔👼🏻 Ever since I feel empty my due was next month on thanksgiving idk how to feel I’m just empty . I remember how much I was crying in you’re daddy’s arms asking why me why..... I’m so sorry baby you were just to beautiful to be in this world I’m sorry I didn’t even make it to your first appointment 👼🏻

! I’m so sorry I couldn’t carry you but just know we all love you 😞💔