Shitty day, I just want to crawl up and bawl

Get a call telling me I am no longer on the schedule for induction on monday. I have been moved to Wednesday due to other patients who are higher priority than myself.

Then about an hour later i get the sad news that my gram has very limited hours remaining to live.

Her cancer has spread to her liver. They wanted to move her to ICU but she does not want to be hooked up to a bunch of wires and tubes. So they are keeping her as peaceful and comfortable as they can in her regular room until she passes on her own.

I am depressed, sad, and angry all at the same time.

I had such Hope's that she would be ok long enough to meet my son and now I know that is a dream that will never happen.

I'm lost! When it rains it pours