What I learned about myself today

So I thought I couldn't do it and yet I did.

See I had this narssasistic problem were I thought I was the only one in the world who is having difficulties in ttcing. And while I still think that it'll be a big long stretch for me to achieve a pregnancy ( altho my hubby is very optimistic) Today ladies I learned that I can look at pictures of new born babies that are within my family. I honestly spent days thinking that When my sister in law finally gives birth And I see pictures I will cry and go balistic but I didn't. No I put all of my crap behind me and was happy to see the pictures of my brand new nephew whose name is Logan. No tears, no hurtful thoughts. We are still waiting for my hubby's sister to actually contact us and say she had the baby and all ( that's a long story, there are some issues regarding her, she really isn't the nicest of people) My hubby was concerned that I would be upset because I've been ttcing for 2 years and she got pregnant right away even before her first marriage annivarsary...but I said I put my crap behind me ( I don't want to be like her after all ) and said perhaps we should give it another week. If we don't hear a thing then we will use invite ourselves over to her house so we can hold the little guy.