How I feel. (PostBreakup)

I’ve Recently broken up with my boyfriend of two years about two weeks ago. Our relationship started off so great, nothing but love & happiness it was just everything I could imagine 😭. Before I knew everything went left QUICK. About four months into the relationship he started treating me in a very negative way. In the mist of it all he lost his job, literally lost his car, allowed his family to disrespect me in his presence & completely started to take his problems out on me. The situation between us got so bad we begin to physically fight each other & argue on a daily basis. Later on, I found out that he cheated on me. He blamed me for it & it broke me , in which I left but later reconciled. The reason for reconciling was because I really did love him unconditionally & I thought he loved me the same. & for a moment I did believe it was my FAULT. I JUST NOW realized that I made a mistake getting back with him because I didn’t love him like before or trusted him, I just liked his presence & didn’t want to be alone. I tried everything getting my feelings back for him for almost a year but I realized I couldn’t. In the process of me trying to rekindle those feelings our relationship GOT WORSE. EVERYTIME I would try to breakup with him he wouldn’t allow it. I never felt so worthless like that in my life. Not to put the blame on him but I had my faults in this relationship as well. I know I should’ve left him alone a long time ago but I just couldn’t.... 😣

In the mist of our recent breakup, he made it clear he doesn’t want to be with anymore & his reason is that he can’t do it anymore. He has cut off all contact with me & basically treats me like I no longer exist.

My question is,

How do I go about seeking closure?

How do I learn to move on for good?

How do I find myself again?....