3 weeks early/tubal decision

Our sweet Holden. After some complications little man was born 3 weeks early. However he was prefect and healthy. Oct 23, 2019 was my baby boys birthday, he wasnt due until nov 12th, 2019. I developed preeclampsia at 37 weeks and was extremely sick. Vomiting for 3 straight days, high bp, lots of swelling, horrible headache, all came on suddenly. My doctors decided it was best for us both to deliver. I was so excited but let's be honest scared. I've never been so sick as I was those days. As excited as I was to finally be able to hold me beautiful baby, I was so very saddened as well, I knew for a fact hes our last as I was having a tubal(I thought I was 100% on not wanting anymore) after having him and holding him, being able to love on him and seeing what a beautiful miracle he is to our family, I'm now struggling with knowing hes our last. It completely broke my heart. I love seeing my husband with him(our only child together) he is by far the best father and partner I could ever ask for. Not once have I had to ask him for anything, hes up with him, feeds him, changes him, snuggles him. You name it, I never have to stress if our baby is taken care of. I DONT HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING ALONE!!

(I had to with my ex husband he wouldnt do a damn thing) so ladies I ask have any of you struggled with having your tubal done and then regretting it? I not sure if I am just hormonal or not. I mean we arent wanting anymore, it's just the fact that I KNOW I cannot have another....