Postpartum

First time momma here, just wanted to vent for a second. My daughter was born oct 30th at 38 weeks due to low fluids. I have never been so Inlove, however my emotions are so out of control already, my anxiety is through the roof.. I’m afraid to eat,sleep. I took my first shower today and bawled in the shower because I was worried something would happen. I honestly hate this feeling and I wish I could just lay her down without being so scared.