Cant shake the worry

So I'm 37 weeks, and have decided it's probably time to wash the baby clothes. However I cant shake the fear of what if im washing these clothes for nothing im so worried something bad is going to happen... im blaming it on my miscarriage I had last year and we just lost my niece due to complications during her birth... I cant imagine washing all these brand new clothes. What if they're never used.... I know weird thing to be worried about I finally gave in and cleaned all the NB and 0-3 but still holding of on some. Jusy cant wait for her to be here and in my arms safe. Our journey has been so long and honestly not sure I could handle another loss especially when shes pretty much done cooking...

Thanks for letting me vent ♡