My fiancé suddenly doesn’t like oral ?

So recently I gave birth. He watched everything go down as I pushed out our daughter. And we have started having sex again, but not like before our daughter was born. He simply can’t get off just by penetration . He will take literally forever... the only way that I can get him off is if I give him oral. And it’s always been tit for tat . He used to give me oral before I had our daughter, and especially when we FIRST got together. And yes, he did enjoy it . He told me once that he would stay down there for hours if he could lol.

Well now, since we’ve started having sex again, we’ve only done the same 2-3 positions. It’s getting boring. I mean it feels good, it feels great actually, but I can’t get off that way and he thinks I do. I told him I don’t but he thinks I’m joking . I said something to him about 69ing and he said he doesn’t do that stuff anymore. And I asked if he really doesn’t give oral anymore and he gave me a very stout “nope .”

Well here’s the thing, I really don’t enjoy giving oral myself. Actually, every time I do it , I come close to throwing up. But I still do it to make him feel good. I know he loves it . I hate everything about oral. Especially the taste when he finishes. I won’t swallow it . It made me legit throw up an entire meal right them & there one day. But I still give him oral despite that. I love him to DEATH, but it’s just not fair 🤷🏽‍♀️. I’m not gonna leave him, and if I have to settle for “vanilla” sex then I will. That’s how much I love him. My family loves him to death too. It would be SO weird not being a family with me, him , and our daughter anymore, so leaving is the last thing on my mind.

I’m thinking about talking to him tonight and telling him everything. I hate oral, but I refuse to do something I don’t enjoy if he won’t return the favor. Like I said, I still do it because I really wanna make him feel good in bed. It turns me on, knowing that I make him feel good. But, I feel like he doesn’t want to do it because of our birth experience. Having to watch me push out our daughter. The only positions we do are doggy, and from behind, laying down. We don’t even do missionary anymore. Hell, I’d even enjoy that. I feel like the further into our relationship we went, the less he started doing..... I refuse to give him oral if he won’t return the favor. But you can bet your hard earned dollar that I will talk to him about it tonight . I could cry . I don’t know what happened, y’all... 😢

Glenda: I told him everything and his feelings were hurt by the fact that I thought he was disgusted in me . He was sad about me feeling that way. Turns out that he really was freaked out by seeing me give birth. He told me that it was traumatic & unappetizing having to see that. We laughed about it later that day. 😂 he also told me that we would get back to regular sex soon. (I’m on the pill and he was wanting to wait to have sex until 2 weeks into my birth control to give it time to kick in) also, he said that the jacking off comment was a joke