My baby is about to be a month, and I’m getting frustrated that my SO doesn’t help as much. He works Monday- Friday 1:30-10:30pm (but lately he’s been getting off at 8:30/9 since it’s been slow.

The 1st two weeks he wasn’t helping in the middle of the night and I literally had a mental meltdown. I was crying and told him I wanted to move closer to family since were 5 hours away. Once he saw how much sleep I wasn’t getting he was starting to help a little by getting the diaper in the middle of the night so I wouldn’t have to get up. (I breastfeed so I made sure to pump so he can feed the baby too. ) if the baby would cry too much, he would take him to the other room to put him back to sleep. He even gave me a night off and watched the baby for whole night...

Now he’s back to the same shit. But worst, now when he gets off work he eats, showers, watches tv then go to bed instead of taking over for a little and spending time with the baby.

He doesn’t even flinch in the middle of the night. If the baby is crying in the bed with us, he acts like he doesn’t hear him. Just last night I went to get water, the baby is in bed with him crying, I walk over there and I saw him get up and thought maybe he’s going to change his diaper...nope since I was there he went to the bathroom and I changed the baby.

I’m getting so fucking annoyed that I do everything and now it comes across that me and the baby are a bother. If I’m changing the baby in the middle of the night, instead of helping or handing me a diaper he pulls the blanket over his head. I even blew up an air mattress in the living for me and the baby just in the case he’s crying to much we can move rooms...that’s were I’m at now since my SO is still sleeping 😡

I’m at the point where I’m ready to break my lease, and move back to be around family and get help from them.