loneliness

Not really sure where to post this but do you ever feel SO alone? I'm in a relationship. I have 5 children. (7months old-8yrs old), 2 dogs. I don't have any friends, even if I did, I wouldn't have time for them. I work but dont care for my coworkers. STILL feel so alone, & I'm not sure why. its just such a shitty feeling not having a single friend. not 1 girl friend I could have come over just to hangout with or even to go to the mall with. any friends I've had have proved to not be actual "friends" (aka, slept with my ex, yes, all of them LOL). just so shitty.

sorry, just had to rant. boyfriend's best friend & his girl friend flew in from florida so they've been doing stuff since Friday & I dont have a sitter & dont want to drag the kids out on their adventure. (his girlfriend isn't from here & she wants to explore. this morning she got to see her first snow!)

just be cool if I could find a friend.