My rainbow pregnancy is stressful 🙈🙈🙈

I'm 23 weeks with twins and my pregnancy is stressful 😢 Last weekend I ended up in ER because of unbelievable sharp pain in my back and stomach. I thought, that it was because of everything is growing in there. But good I went in.

Doctor found out that my cervix is 2,5 cm. Tuesday I went in for scan and my cervix was 1,8 cm😢😢😢

They kept me in hospital.

Yesterday I've got my surgery. Cervical cerclage. I went in with thought, that I will have epidural, but I get so nervous and all memories from my last year stillbirth and D&C came back. I almost fainted on surgery table.

I ended up in full anesthesia.

Now I'm on bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy with different medications.

Im under so much stress. 🙈🙈🙈😭😭😭😭😭