Pregnancy after miscarriage

Feeling alone and would love to know if anyone can relate...

I lost my first baby in July at 10 weeks. It had taken us quite a while to get pregnant, and everything about it felt so joyful until the end.

I found out I was pregnant again a week ago. It was quite a surprise as I assumed we’d have to try for a long time again. I know I should be so happy and grateful, and that we are so incredibly lucky that it wasn’t a struggle. But I just feel... nothing. If anything, I feel upset to be back at the beginning when I would’ve been 6 months by now if I hadn’t lost my first. My husband and I have hardly talked about or acknowledged that I’m pregnant; I think we’re both blocking it out.

Can anyone here relate? And if you’ve been through it before, was there a stage when it lifted and you could acknowledge the new pregnancy and feel happy about it?

I’m terrified I’ll get to the very end and feel no connection to my child.