My boyfriend forced me to have sex with him.

This story is hard and embarrassing to tell. But I need to tell someone and I'm too embarrassed to tell my friends and even my counselor.

I'm 22 and I'm 17 weeks pregnant with my NOW ex boyfriends baby. We dated for 2 years and it was amazing we loved each other and we made plans to be together forever. But, towards the end of 2 years, he started drinking A LOT. And when he would drink he would get angry, crazy, and nearly violent. We broke up because of this and he went to rehab for 2 months. He recently got back a week ago and told me how much he had changed and that he was sober. Me being pregnant and stupid, I decided to give it another chance. Yesterday we got into an argument and I didnt feel like talking to him. He came onto me sexually and I told him no and that I wasn't in the mood. He gave up but then 5 mins later started touching me and I said no again. I tried pushing his hand away but he moved it right back and continued ignoring me. This went on until he took my pants and underwear off, even though I was fighting with him to keep them on. I kept telling him no and that I didnt want to do anything. He then forced himself inside of me and no matter how hard I fought, he wouldn't get off and he wouldn't let me up. I asked him if we could please stop and he told me "no we aren't stopping and you're not leaving until we are done". I told him that it hurt and he said that if I would stop fighting him it wouldn't hurt. At this point I had given up the fight and I just sat there, lifeless, knowing I wasn't strong enough to get him off of me. He then forced me to give him a hand job. I made a fist and tried everything to not touch him . I didnt want to give in. He then told me "if you dont stop fighting me, I will break your wrist". At this point I was in tears and I was scared. After a good hour or more of this, he finally stopped and I left. I broke up with him and decided to myself I would finally move on. He had never done anything like this so I was shocked and confused. This morning I woke up to find out he is in jail and had been arrested for aggravated assault against his brother. Apparently, after what happened with us he went home and got drunk and started a fight with his older brother. I feel stupid and confused and helpless and now his baby is in my belly. I dont know where to go from here.