I need help

I have been so depressed lately... Can’t eat can’t sleep my mind is constantly racing.. Idk what to do anymore i feel defeated i feel like giving up i hate myself for the decisions i make.. I turned 19 in September.. my life is pretty hard rn i wish it could be better.. this is not a teen rant i have real life problems

Can somebody give me advice please i don’t have anybody else to talk to 😢💔