Anxiety around second child

Hi,

Is anyone else really anxious about having another baby? My LG is 3 tomorrow. Ideally I would have liked another child by now but meningitis cropped up last year. I’m struggling TTC and depending on next set of bloods I’ll likely be referred to Gynaecology. My anxiety is at an all time high about having another child. So much so I’m rethinking the decision to have a second child; the sleepless nights, twice the work, pregnancy, Labour etc. And if I will cope with another baby.

As I write this I realise it sounds so silly but was wondering if anyone else has any advice? Tia