My husband getting checked

We’ve been trying for 15 months to have a baby.

Literally doing everything we can think of.

So, we decided he should get checked to.

(He has a kid from a previous relationship so we didn’t think he was the problem lol).

Well today he went and made an appointment for his spermies to get checked.

I’m terrified.

What if I can’t have a family with the man I love.

What if my husband is sterile?

What would I tell my family?

How do I break the news I myself that I can’t ever carry his child.

What if my only children will be adopted?

It’s so scary.

It’s so scary to think I’ll never be able to do cute pregnancy photos , have a bump, or experience being a mother to own my flesh and heart beating outside my chest.

And before I get a bunch of negative comments about adopting, or have a sperm donor, or leaving my husband.. take those comments and shove it because we all know it’s not the same.