End of maternity leave

My leave ends the day after Christmas and I’m dreading going back to work 😭 I love my job but I’ve also enjoyed being home with our son these last few weeks.

I only work 3 days a week so I know it won’t be that bad, but I work 12-14 hour days starting at 4am, idk how I’m going to adjust having to get to bed at a decent time and then be away from him for so long 😩

I wish I could just be a stay at home mom but I would have to find something to do to bring in some sort of income 😭