Heartbroken at work

Today I told my husband that I didn’t want to have my tubes tied after the baby were currently pregnant with. That made him mad and it spiraled out of control to him telling me he didn’t even want our two kids and that I never even asked him if he wanted kids. He brought up that he has had to love me even though I’ve done all of this stuff (flunked out of college my freshman year. I was only 17) he’s had to love me even though I have a panic disorder and self esteem issues. I am so hurt. He even said that he should have left me the first time he thought about it. I had no idea my husband resented me so much. I want to curl up in a hole and die. I feel so worthless. I’m sitting in my car on my lunch break crying my eyes out because I am so hurt. I want to leave work but I don’t know where to go. My house doesn’t feel like a home now. I’m at a loss. I just had no idea.