Almost 22 weeks

Everyday is a blessing and that I’ve made it this far, but since having a miscarriage early at 7 weeks I don’t think your heart ever fully heals. I’ve had an amazing pregnancy so far, I’ve only thrown up once, bit of nausea etc but don’t really feel pregnant. I haven’t felt the baby move yet (I’m plus size so I’m banking it on that), but think I’ve felt the few “pops” here and there. I am truly grateful and blessed to be where I am right now but can’t help but feel skeptical all the time, that the positivity was taken from me. Has anyone else felt like this? Does your sense of loss finally go away after your little bundle is in your arms?