I dont know what I need to hear...

I'm a mom to 2 beautiful children, a 13 month old, and a 3 week old...the Joy's that come with being a parent are a blessing. And I couldn't be happier, but with all that comes with being drained, tired, grumpy, patience starts to run out, but you need to find every last bit of positive in you, to be happy for your kids, and to make a safe and positive environment for them.

But I'm tired. I'm not sleeping well, my husband works 12 hour days. My eyes hurt, I want to cry all the time..and I feel like I'm go go go even when the kids are napping.

I'm up during the night with my newborn. My husband doesnt get up. He says he doesnt here the cries, and when he does he rarely gets up. I'm up all the time. Ince in a while he will go for me.. but that's only on weekends.

He doesnt have very much patience as a person... he gets angry easy but he knows he shouldn't be like that... but it's hard...

What I'm bothered with right now, is what we just discussed earlier today... I love this man. And we wanted kids... but I have to say, it broke my heart when he said "if I didnt love you, I believe I would have left already. I dont have the patience to deal with the kids alone".

He has a son with another woman, but only sees him everh other weekend. He was telling me how he thought he would be great with kids because he had his son, and the little time he gets with him, he enjoys. But being around a newborn and toddler, hes finding it hard. And when I have tj leave to do a few errands, and hes left alone, he gets upset, frustrated and low tolerance for anything. He csnt deal with the attitude of my daughter and my 3 week old son always crying and hungry.

Hes telling me these things, because were suppose to talk as a couple, and figure stuff out. So I'm happy hes talking to me rather than keeping this is in... I just feel like if I wasn't a nice person to him he would up and leave me and the kids...

I know he tries. And were talking this through... but I dkmt know how to feel, or handle this... all I feel like doing is crying.