Major vent.

I do not understand what the deal is. It seems like EVERYONE I know on Facebook is getting pregnant left and right.. without even trying. Most of them are oopsies. My friends sister is pregnant now and she didn’t even want another 🤬 I’m so fed up. Why is it so hard!! With my daughter it took ONE MONTH! OONNEEE!!!!! And we weren’t even trying. Just not preventing. We also both smoked cigs and were total pot heads so really you’d think it would have been more difficult than what it was. We had a miscarriage after I got pregnant with the second and we only tried 3 months for that one. I’ve been trying for over a freaking year!! I’ve done everything I can freaking think of! Tracking, temping, supplements, eating well... I don’t smoke cigs or weed. I only drink wine here and there. All I want is to give my daughter a sibling and for them to be close in age 😭😭😭 I want to be pregnant again! It was such an amazing experience and I feel like my whole body is crying out because that’s literally all I freaking want and it has been so damn hard. Yesterday I got a faint line.. barely there but I could see it and it was pink. Today I can’t see anything really. Just an indent. I’m so fed up. Why is it so easy for people who don’t try or even care to have a baby but it’s extremely hard for the ones that long for one and dream of pregnancy? Seems cruel and unfair. I’m tired of people telling me “it’ll happen when it’s the right time” that just makes me feel like garbage. And “stop trying and it’ll happen” HOW!? How does one “stop trying” when that’s all you want? I stopped tracking a few times and that did nothing but make me have sex on all the wrong days so how the hell is that helpful? I could rant for day’s about this and all the unhelpful advice people have tried to give me... but I’ll just stop here I guess. 😭 sorry for the long rant. Needed to get all of this out!