Suicidal, depressed, ready for a divorce

I want to feel loved.. do I have the worse marriage ? No but I simply have so much hurt in my life I just longed to be loved and have someone genuinely interested in me. Because my husband has 0 interest in me I seek attention from everyone (not other males) but like my doctors etc. I want everyone to feel sorry for me. I want everyone to know how bad I am suffering, but afraid to tell the well. I have PTSD, PND and PNA as well as physical injuries from a birth trauma 2.5 years ago. I am so deeply sad and exhausted and my husband gives 0 shits.