Just venting

At this point I don’t wanna get my hopes up high so I’m trying to convince myself that AF is coming. I’ve had sore nipples for the last five days. I’ve had the sharp cramps. I’ve had the bad lower backache. I’ve had the nausea but I’m not gonna believe it. I refuse to get my feelings hurt again. I hate it. I’m 13 dpo and I’m so anxious...just venting