Feeling Down

I know I'm not the first or the last to become a single mother... But dang this was the hardest decision I've ever had to make.

When I look at other single moms, I don't see a loser, I see a strong mother. But when I see myself right now, I see a loser and a failure...

I can't stop thinking "Why couldn't this just work..." "What did I do so wrong that he couldn't change for me..." "I'm never going to be loveable..." I mean the negativity is real right now and I feel so deeply hurt by this.

I know that leaving my baby's father was the best decision because he chooses everything above our family and I feel deep in my gut that this will never change.

I should have been more wise when I started dating him, but now I can see clearly the kind of man I NEED in my life and at least I was blessed with the sweetest little baby I could ever ask for...

I have a lot to be grateful for, but today I just feel crushed.