Sad story time 💔

9th grade I met a guy let’s call him Tim. So I was 13-14 my dad was strict about boys. Summer came and I would sneak and go to the park for an hour to see Tim we would text all night long nothing serious just childish flirts. School starts Tim is now in 12th and I’m in 10th he played basketball and I would go to his games and he would come to my classes to mess with me he would walk me to school. He respected my dad not allowing me to date so we didn’t for some time then November came and he wanted to make it official so we did everything was innocent and sweet knowing our age difference. January came and I met his family. My brothers friend saw him and told my family I was dating someone In his 20s. I had to hid it by the time February came and I was head over heels by now on Valentine’s Day after we exchanged gifts I told him I loved him to the moon and back and wanted to give him my v card. March came and he met my family they grew to love him we went on our first date he got me a “ I love you to the moon and back” chain. Suddenly a change... we were always on and off he graduated and I had no time. We break up and go separate ways but always came back. Then it got worst he started messing around when we broke up so I would try get into other relationships and he would start to call me out my name he began to push me and say I drive him to do it. Until I grew balls and started fighting him back.After we made three years everything hit the fan the pushes turned into him hitting me and me breaking all his things he slept with many girls after a week of us breaking up he got reckless with the name calling but i was no better stabbing him and breaking things. I just assumed we were young and had to work on ourselves. Now I’m carrying his child I checked his phone to see him texting girls on fb he kicked me out. Saying we need space so after three months this November we made 4 years and had our babyshower the day after our anniversary. I found him fishing for girls on instagram and Facebook. Telling them he wants to send them dick pictures and bring them to our home. He blocked me on everything told me our relationship means nothing to him and he will never get back with me. Imagine being young just starting her young adult hood and was in a relationship the whole time taking him out of state for the first time forcing him to go on his prom and paying for it helping him move into your parents house when he was kicked out him almost being locked up and standing outside the jail waiting for him getting y’all first apartment together getting a puppy and two kittens together now a baby. I really don’t want a relationship with anyone but I want him to act right. It sucks knowing we spent our childhood together now and now had a baby coming. I wish someone told me to run and run fast and far. I don’t regret it cause that was my first love but damn heartbreak hurts I cry looking at old pictures and knowing ima be a single mom I try to talk to him and it’s so different like I’m not who I am anymore. I assume his messing with someone as in talking talking instead of messing around with a couple just to have sex. Pointless sex means nothing to me but once he has a special someone that does cause he is willing to lose his family and first love for someone new just in the middle of a pregnancy I’m just heartbroken and hopeless 💔