Does this make me a bad mom?

I have an 11 year old, TTC my second (my SOs 1st). I absolutely love my son with all of my being but I cannot stand when he sits next to me. He doesn’t leave any space between us and I just feel cornered. I feel so bad that I tell him to move or scoot over but OMG, I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack because he’s just so damn close! I have to get up and walk away.

My SO and I don’t really sit on the couch together either, he has recliner and I have the couch. Every now and then, my SO will sit next to me with his arm around the back of the couch. But like I said, it’s not often.

Am I a bad mom for feeling this way? When my son was a baby/toddler, I cuddled with him but now that he’s older, I just feel cramped and cornered.

**Just want to add after reading some of the comments...

I am never mean about it, I just tell him to give me a little space. I let him know that I don’t mind him sitting next to me, I just need a little room.

I’m fully aware toddlers are clingy and I let my son cling to me when he was younger but he’s older and much bigger so it’s a lot of weight pressed against me so it’s not comfortable to have him right up against me. I still cuddle with him from time to time so I don’t neglect him or his feelings. He’s a mess of emotions and has issues of his own we are working through.**

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Y’all can be pissed off all you want. Just because I’m a mother doesn’t mean I can’t have my own personal space. And just because I want a little personal space doesn’t mean I don’t love my son and doesn’t mean I shouldn’t have kids. No one is perfect and I know I have flaws. My son and I bond in our own ways. He’s never been neglected or made to feel like he wasn’t loved. EVER.