A little Rant

So, my fiancé and I have been together for 3 years, going on 4. We have 2 boys together. Well, recently, he has been more about himself. I’m a SAHM and I’m miserable. He gets to shower whenever, nap whenever, go wherever. I only leave the house when I go to the store or to my moms, or when we all go somewhere together. I have the stomach bug and I’ve been tired and can’t stay out of the bathroom. I am still having to get up with our 3 month old. I’m still having to change his diaper, feed him, feed our 3 year old, change his pull up, dress the kids, if we go anywhere, I have to put them both in their car seats. I’m just so miserable, but anytime I say something about how I’m tired, he says it’s because I’m lazy. Yet, he doesn’t do anything around the house, he will wash laundry, but he doesn’t put it up. He hasn’t worked in the past week, but I’m still suppose to do everything. The past 2 days he has went missing with his friends, while I’m sitting home sick with 2 kids. I just feel left out. We don’t ever go out on dates. I think the last actual date we went on was 2 weeks after our 3 year old was born. I just want him to want to do stuff with me and the kids. We play our Xboxes together, but we aren’t even in the same room when we do. I never get time for just me. And as bad as it sounds, Christmas is right around the corner, but I’m just not in the Christmasy mood. Sorry, I just had to rant. I don’t really have any friends, so I needed to let it out.