Genetic testing

Part of me wishes I wouldn’t have even gotten the genetic testing done! We tested positive for an increased risk of neural tube defects and it’s been the toughest week of my life. My mind is being pulled in two different direction of wether or not I’m making the right choices for him. We had the choice to either get an amniocentesis done or not do it and just go with getting more scans to check his growth and I decided to not get the amnio because no matter what I will love this little boy with my whole heart and I didn’t want the risk of a miscarriage from the amnio weighing on my mind for the rest of the pregnancy. On the other hand I’m thinking I’m an idiot because I want to be prepared for whatever this life is gonna throw our way and I feel like the only way to know for sure is by getting the amnio done. Everything looked good on our anatomy scan and the doctor said he has never missed one before.

I’m sorry for the long post this app makes me feel like I can vent out all of my feelings and get the positive comments and stories I’ve been looking for that I can’t get through family and friends that have no idea what I’m currently going through. Thanks for reading if you made it this far