Quitting nicotine- need help

Two years ago I started vaping because I was very depressed and didn’t care about anything. I told myself it wouldn’t matter if I got addicted cuz I didn’t think I’d be alive long enough for it to affect me. Downer but that’s how I felt.

Well here I am two years later, mentally healthy and very happy with life. Except now I’m very addicted to nicotine.

The past 6 months I keep telling myself I’m gonna quit, this is my last pack, once I run out of pods this is the real time I’m done- its an endless cycle.

I don’t like how it effects my body- messes with my gut health, makes my lungs sore, even makes me lethargic sometimes. I vape pretty moderately now- which I see as a win considering I used to use it heavily. I use a Juul, for anyone wondering. I started with Sourin.

But anyways, I really want to quit. I really do. I know everyone says cold turkey is the best way to stop. I just can’t bring myself to throw it away. I’m honestly more afraid that I won’t be able to handle the withdrawals. I’ve gone through withdrawals before when I had to stop for a few days wether I was out of money and couldn’t buy more, my current one broke and had to buy a new one, etc., and it was hell. But I’m more addicted now than I was then.

Any advice for quitting would be greatly appreciated.

I thought about just tossing it in the sink and letting the water run until it wouldn’t turn on anymore but again- I couldn’t actually do it.

Thanks in advance