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TO THE GIRL WHO HATED MY pregnancy ANNOUNCEMENT...

I get it. I know the feeling.

That gut-wrenching, hard to breathe feeling.

Because that was me. The girl that saw yet ANOTHER pregnancy announcement on my newsfeed and just rolled her eyes and cried. The girl that felt sick to her stomach because it wasn't me doing the announcing. The girl that was so angry that you didn't even have to try... It was an "accident". The girl that would cry behind closed doors because my heart was so broken that my body wouldn't produce a miracle like yours would.

I get it.

I'm so sorry.

I know seeing a pregnancy announcement yet again has made you an emotional hot mess.

I'm so sorry.

I know your heart is breaking into a million pieces all the while you are digging way down deep to express just an ounce of joy for the parents to be.

I'm so sorry.

I know the ugly jealous feeling all too well. The kind of feeling that makes you feel like you're back in high school, and it isn't a feeling you are proud of.

I'm so sorry.

This season of our lives has been hard. I'm talking all capital letter HARD. It's been ugly, heartbreaking, and full of hope that ends in despair. And while I wouldn't have particularly chosen this route, I am learning to be thankful for what infertility has taught me.

It has taught me to have faith. Not in the traditional sense, but faith that things happen in their own time.

So here is my love to those of you in your waiting period...

I hope your hormone levels even out to what they are supposed to be. I hope for regular cycles. I hope for clear Fallopian tubes... no blockages of any kind. I hope for your uterine lining to be strengthened. I hope for any and all endometriosis to be non-existent. I hope your PCOS is healed or easily controlled. I hope against any cysts that may hinder your ability to get pregnant. I hope for your follicles to mature and your eggs to grow. I hope for you to ovulate at just the perfect time. I hope for the sex to be fun and for your love for your spouse to grow so deeply. I hope for his sperm to reach your mature and healthy eggs and for them to fertilize at just the right moment. I hope the healthy follicle embeds into your uterus and grows into the most perfect miracle!

I hope for you to not feel alone. Because YOU ARE NOT. I hope for your trust to deepen, your patience to increase, and for compassion to flood your veins.

So, this is for the girl who got another negative pregnancy test this morning… to the girl who has no idea why this is so hard for her… to the girl whose heart is so bitter… to the girl who has lost a child due to miscarriage or heartbreaking circumstance… to the girl whose adoption process has failed once again… to the girl who has one child but can’t seem to get pregnant again… I love you. I am so sorry you are going through this, and I know it’s just not fair. Don’t let the bitterness and jealousy flood your veins and distract you from what you want to accomplish.

Over 5 years of infertility.

11 miscarriages

Hundreds of dollars in medical bills.

Several cycles of testing

Prescription after prescription.

Ultrasound after ultrasound.

Hundreds of needle pricks.

Months of failed attempts

And 2 pink lines to remind me how thankful I am for my son every single second.